I am really good about leaving things out or jumping all over the place and was told I needed to add some more to this so here goes.
I hyper fixate on doing and learning things. I have a lot of hobbies which most are expensive, I would say photography hands down wins at being the most expensive.
I love learning and understand that I am learning and I love challenging myself and also understand that I am but with that being said I am also very hard on myself when I sometimes don’t have to be. That doesn’t change it though.
I say I am a failed photographer because well I have spent the last few years consistently upgrading my equipment, getting better at contrast, better at editing and color grading, and it is almost impossible for me to give away sessions for free. I have Mae myself be ok with this.
I don’t use social media, mostly because I always compared myself to others and reflected my work and mental state off of likes and reactions and that’s not what photography should be about. It’s not about how well you do, it’s not this person doing better. It’s about admiring others work, appreciating their techniques, capturing the moments you want to remember, like your child crawling for the first time, a special little vacation you went as all out as you could on. Giving yourself photos that in a month, a year, 5 years, you can look back on and remember those moments.