Note to Self
I don’t know how we keep ending up here…
Your work is amazing and has been doing great. For not being on social media for almost one whole year you’ve gotten paid sessions, you’ve finally achieved a goal you’ve had for over two years.
Not every photo you take is going to be amazing, not every lens will be the best for you. Sometimes even though all of your settings are perfect and all your levels are great it just won’t look the way you wanted.
Step back sometimes and take a break. If your edits aren’t going how you want just take the day off and circle back.
Your attention and goal for perfectiveness is a lot to maintain sometimes but it is what makes you, you.
Sometimes you forget that you’re in no rush for any of this. Your whole goal is to capture moments to create physical memories and stories. Sometimes you just have to take what you got throw on a Black & White Preset and call it ‘‘Good Enough’’.
The goal is Perfection, but it’s not always the point and you stress about this to much some times.
Just because people aren’t lining up to have photos taken, or you’re not booked up when you really want to be does not mean you have failed.
You’re just successfully unsuccessful and that is ok. You are always going to think the worst of what you are capturing. You see in your head what you envision and that’s great, but what you have captured and created is the only image others see, take the complements and stop hating everything you do because something is slightly off from what you wanted.
Just remember when you get in this mind set of wanting to sell all of your camera gear and be done with the stress, you are the one doing it to yourself.
Regardless of how you’re feeling today or if someone cares or doesn’t care about your photos, you are still doing shit. Your photos are still used in offices all over the country, you are still capturing core memories of and for your family.
You will be shooting a Black & White event in a week, you’re doing a lot of big shit to feel like such a useless photographer.
Always learn, strive for perfection, try new things; but take your time and step back when needed. The only person you are failing with photography is yourself for no reason.
Come back and read again the next time you need this.
